Dear Diary,

My thoughts may come out slow

But I want to let you know

That I fell in love today

It was only with his face

And the taste of his cologne

But I learned something’s about him

From the fragrance in my nose

He’s and honest man.

And from the spice

It was clear that he cared about the simple things in life

I got close enough to touch him

He had just the right amount on

Evidently he cares about first impressions

But doesn’t come off too strong

He’s a gentle man with a clear conscience

About the person he’s become

And he’d rather let a person speak

Before he asks what’s wrong

He’s easy going and not a cheap man either

I could tell that if he has a girl

He’d really like to please her

And from the way he dressed

To the look shone from his eyes

It’s apparent he’s a caring man

Filled with love in his life time

I hope one day I meet him

And he tells me his full name

But I’ll remember his scent meanwhile

Until we meet again.

With much affection and a flaming heart of desire,

Janae

The People

I was going to make this into a song but, a letter in writing has a universal language for all The People. 


The People


    Thank you God for all the people in my life. 
    Even though I've..

Left Them,

Mocked Them,

Hated Them,

Hurt Them,

Used Them,

Changed Them.

     They still cared about Me.
               Loved Me.
               Took Me.
          Shared with Me.
             Forgave Me.


    The PEOPLE are.... Fearless.

    and I would not be who I am today without the people being who they are. 

They brought me back to God. Showed me true love.

Thank You People

Thank you God for The People. 

I love them

I love you, God.

I’ve been

Drinking more than I’ve been singing

Blogging more than I’ve been thinking

Mad because I am not gifted 

Stupid 

I’ve been 

Crying because I realized I’m 

Dying, I won’t get two chances 

Trying

So I give up lying 

Here’s where I stand

I’m over compensating for

An illusion I won’t be more

I look at the stars and say 

That could be me

One day 

One day

I’ve been 

Lying down more than I’m trying 

Picking fights more than I’m writing

Plotting how to get you to believe

This star in me

I’ve been 

Spying on all who threaten

Those who sing better than I can 

Id lay down my life for my dream and 

I’m frightened

I’m over compensating for

An illusion I won’t be more

I look at the stars and say 

That could be me

One day 

One day

A thought..

Tonight I can't sleep 

I only get attention when I, for him, do good things

Maybe that's the way the world works and this is one of relationship's perks

But I cannot do this forever

Just so when you feel good we can be together

Either you love me or you don't

through the bad times and the faults

Honey, I refuse 

To only feel good when you do

you need to treat me with embracement all the time

Otherwise, find another to make you smile.

-janae  

For You

So they ask me, "Why aren't you taken?"

Thinking somethings wrong with me

But they don't realize I've just been waiting

And my absence of company is a blessing

I am free for you 

Been waiting for you 

Everything has its time

And I believe time saved itself to make you mine

Now, I've never I doubted
Never have I changed 
my mind about what we would have 
honestly I cannot wait

I would give you the best part of me 
I want to show you how good love can be 
wait until you find me 
we can make love anything
its already happening


Never will I fail you 
Never will I fail to 
Give you everything that you deserve 

It came together

Not before or after 

But right on time 

-janae

My Rap

Darius

watup

10:08pmMe

hey

10:09pmDarius

how are you

10:09pmMe

good how are you?

10:10pmDarius

i can't complain... i saw your rap on here i just wanted to let you know i thought it was mad creative

10:11pmMe

aww thank you so much

comment on it please!!

im really happy you enjoyed it

10:12pmDarius

you're welcome... and i will do that now!

yea it had me laughin when you said somethin along the lines of "i bet you watch this to the end" or somethin like that... cause i didn't even THINK about turnin it off until it was over

10:12pmMe

thank you so much

haha!!

10:12pmDarius

you're welcome

10:12pmMe

cool

I LOVE THINGS LIKE THIS; WHEN I GET 'EM MY WHOLE MOTIVATION IF FIRED UP AGAIN (: THANK YOU FOR YOUR SUPPORT AND LOVE


-JANAE

Indulging

If for one second I could indulge

And forget what ever I've been told

Forget the rules and all the moves 

Neglecting poise and silky smooth

I would indulge my heart and mind in you

I would indulge like lovers on at two

A chocolaty caramel sensation

Intense like physical penetration

Blood flow high and colors racing

I would indulge in you like I was tasting

Sweet sweet mud, of my mother’s making

If only you could feel what I’m anticipating

You’d never leave me dry for breaking...

I am a goddess in my mind

And you, my subject, owe a fine

You can see a twinkle in my eye

You’re scared to death that you might die

“Come here”,  I say

And you step forward

I glance at you walking closer

Grab you by your neck and say

“HOW COULD YOU?  DISOBEY!”

Come with me to my own corridors

And right behind you close the doors

If you could see how you make me smile

You’d probably stay longer than a while

It’s not natural for one to have such an affect

Especially on a hardened chest

But here’s a map that leads you to the key

And when you come back I’ll know you’ve come for me

You’ll unlock and find softness in there

Softness that only a few haven’t feared

Indulge yourself in me with tears

If I became your fantasy

Whipped cream and cheery toppings

Everything that’s to your liking

Would you forget the world for your pipe dreams?

That is, me... 

Would you forget the world to chase

Something that only exists in your own space

Indulge, My Love, in true existence

It isn’t real until you invent it

If they can do it, who says we can’t?

If we could indulge for just one second

-Janae Rockwell-

Dedication

So its been so long since I've published a new blog! 

The only thing that's on my mind right now is music, work and always love [=. I've never realized what dedication meant until now. Giving "your life" to a cause or an idea. Something that you'd lay down your life for. 

Eat it, breathe it, research it, love it. I've been searching for something  worthy to dedicate my life to. Something positive and beneficial to the world and myself. I've witness one person's dedication; Kyries Hebert. And it change my idea of the world and fate. He makes his own decisions. He runs his own business. Because he was dedicated to his cause and ready for the opportunities.   

Now that I've discovered the meaning of DEDICATION I think I'm almost there

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