Lost Love Letter Left for my Lover

My Dearest,

My passion flows so deeply for you that I find words to be useless. There is a long forgotten flame that you've happened to stubble upon and ignited. I don't believe it could have been lit by anyone else. there is a heat in your touch that arouses my blood. And a texture in you voice that sails my skin. there is a vibration in you lips that tremble my nerves. and a lust in your eyes that vanishes the world. 

i would get lost in space with you. if you would hold me for all time. 

I will long remember these words verbatim in written sequences as i have rehearsed them repeatedly to the air. i touch the air as if you were there in front of me. i wrap my sheets around me as if it were your body pressed so tightly with mine like atoms infusing. i would be a chemical with you. we would never part. there would be no method to divide us equally to our independent states. 

my desire for you dives far past longing. i yearn for you as a weapon yearns for flesh. i copy your expressions in my memory to recall on after you have left. i dedicate moments in my day to you as to make you proud. i saved my fortress for you, king. no acknowledgements required. all of this is for the love i feel in your presents. it glows so warm that it carries me to our next encounter. a day without you is ten years without rain in the desert. and hours without you equates to centuries without sunlight in the north. 

i say this the only way i know how; in truth. and im sitting here at my desk contemplating heavens arrival, that is, when you come back to my arms, my love. when you are near my heart skips a beat and when we touch they race the same speed. and it responds only to you. you're my hearts only keeper, caller and desire. my soul reaches for you without my body knowing. am i possessed? 

nature is the most brilliant essence of virtue. and when i look into the moons radiant halo, all i seem to think about is you. a storm has cast over a city and the thunderous clouds remind me of your strength. a white dove flies passed my car window as it rains and i can only think of your gentleness. and upon thinking of the magnitude of a star, i am only brought back to your greatness. 

i don't want to know how. i am just happy that this is. i know you experience my joy when you witness unforeseen tears fall from my eyes in moments of silence between us. it is only necessary that we stay together. i cannot fathom an inch of time deprived of a single splash of you against the coating of my life. 


And if you're here I am here. I'll never be here without you. I'll never go there until you allow me to, with you. Be mine like a Valentine candy would quote. Run with me through a lifetime so we can catch up to eternity. Just you an me. 
From your immeasurable, indefinite, limitless Janae 
I dedicate my time and space 
to You 
Forever.

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Janae Poem

I’ve never traveled but I’ve explored

I’ve laid down and cried in my bed before

I’ve sobbed over boys and I’ve sobbed over girls

I've sobbed over toys and I’ve sobbed over love

I’ve dominated my domain

And I’ve kept consistency day to day

I’ve cut out fear

And I’ve cut out crime

I’ve reached perfection in my life

I’ve smiled and I’ve laughed

Grieved and been depressed

Till 16 as a mess

Then 4 years counting in defense 

I’ve been a teen

And a substitute adult

I’ve done so many things wrong

And still tag it as my fault

Betrayed by friends

And forgiven many

I pray for forgiveness

And given plenty

Expanded borders

And crossed a few

Lines I crossed with some you

I was young

Impressionable at one time

But now today my heart doesn’t live the same lie

I’ve been blamed and been innocent

I’ve been guilty and free of sin

I’ve rescued a dog and fed the poor

I gave 5 dollars and wished to give more

I’ve been abused but never felt it

I’ve been accused but never convicted

I am Human

I am just like the rest

I wake up every morning and try my best

I give my last nerve and I say my last word

I connect with the past

And I heal the hurt

I move forward like a human is supposed to do

And in my songs and poems I represent you

Any questions? Read this again today

Hello, my friend , my name is Janae.

Trust

I’ll never act like I’m annoyed with you 

If you don’t act annoyed with me

And I’ll never be so impatient with you 

If you’re not so impatient with me

Because I love you 

And I’m only reacting to the things you put me through

But if you treat me really good

I’ll treat you really good too 

Dear Diary,

My thoughts may come out slow

But I want to let you know

That I fell in love today

It was only with his face

And the taste of his cologne

But I learned something’s about him

From the fragrance in my nose

He’s and honest man.

And from the spice

It was clear that he cared about the simple things in life

I got close enough to touch him

He had just the right amount on

Evidently he cares about first impressions

But doesn’t come off too strong

He’s a gentle man with a clear conscience

About the person he’s become

And he’d rather let a person speak

Before he asks what’s wrong

He’s easy going and not a cheap man either

I could tell that if he has a girl

He’d really like to please her

And from the way he dressed

To the look shone from his eyes

It’s apparent he’s a caring man

Filled with love in his life time

I hope one day I meet him

And he tells me his full name

But I’ll remember his scent meanwhile

Until we meet again.

With much affection and a flaming heart of desire,

Janae

The People

I was going to make this into a song but, a letter in writing has a universal language for all The People. 


The People


    Thank you God for all the people in my life. 
    Even though I've..

Left Them,

Mocked Them,

Hated Them,

Hurt Them,

Used Them,

Changed Them.

     They still cared about Me.
               Loved Me.
               Took Me.
          Shared with Me.
             Forgave Me.


    The PEOPLE are.... Fearless.

    and I would not be who I am today without the people being who they are. 

They brought me back to God. Showed me true love.

Thank You People

Thank you God for The People. 

I love them

I love you, God.

I’ve been

Drinking more than I’ve been singing

Blogging more than I’ve been thinking

Mad because I am not gifted 

Stupid 

I’ve been 

Crying because I realized I’m 

Dying, I won’t get two chances 

Trying

So I give up lying 

Here’s where I stand

I’m over compensating for

An illusion I won’t be more

I look at the stars and say 

That could be me

One day 

One day

I’ve been 

Lying down more than I’m trying 

Picking fights more than I’m writing

Plotting how to get you to believe

This star in me

I’ve been 

Spying on all who threaten

Those who sing better than I can 

Id lay down my life for my dream and 

I’m frightened

I’m over compensating for

An illusion I won’t be more

I look at the stars and say 

That could be me

One day 

One day

A thought..

Tonight I can't sleep 

I only get attention when I, for him, do good things

Maybe that's the way the world works and this is one of relationship's perks

But I cannot do this forever

Just so when you feel good we can be together

Either you love me or you don't

through the bad times and the faults

Honey, I refuse 

To only feel good when you do

you need to treat me with embracement all the time

Otherwise, find another to make you smile.

-janae